The moments where I decide that I would be happier sewing buttons on shirts or slinging drinks to underage drunks instead of going to my 9-6 marketing gig is when I know that my current job is not the one for me. I'm afraid to say that marketing might not be my all time love.
My one-year anniversary at my company was two weeks ago and since then I've been doing a lot of soul searching about what I want to do with my life. I started working just three days after my college graduation and just three days before Memorial Day weekend. I jumped the gun. I knew when I graduated that I wanted to write or edit and when those jobs didn't fall in my lap I rushed into my the job I have now, which now, after much contemplation I know was the wrong decision.
This past year, I've learned a lot and I've grown a lot. Just last month, Small Fry confided to me that she and The Boss had had many a conversation about whether I was going to make it or not in the field of marketing. Looking back on the first few months, I'd admit that things were pretty rocky. To this day if you listen to my pre-recorded voicemail, you can tell I had no voice (since I had just graduated I'm pretty sure I was still drunk from Senior Week debaucheries) and if you look back at all the Excel sheets I did up until August you would wonder why I was never fired (yea, they were that bad).
I can truly say I've come along way. I'm a (somewhat) valued member of my company, I've made a lot of friends, and I'm a master at Excel. But some things aren't going to change - the fact that I don't have a dental plan, that I don't have a vision plan, or that I'm always going to be an assistant no matter what my actual title is. Nor is the fact that marketing and I are not in love.
With that being said, I'm going to be making some changes in my life within the next few months. I'm going to be applying to graduate schools across the country for a master's in journalism (fingers crossed I get in) and hope that with this big change in my life, I'll get what I truly want out of my life - to fall in love with my career.